Friday, July 27, 2012
Wednesday, July 25, 2012
Wawa...
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A new study may provide a clearer picture of how a controversial chemical called bisphenol A leaches out of plastics.By Liz Szabo, USA TODAY
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39th Anniversary...
Thank you, Bruce for treating me like Pippa Middleton. Now quit being a food pimp and asking me if I want another Klondike bar.
Pops and Gwen
Tuesday, July 24, 2012
Supersize...
I'm tired of it. Weight is a huge struggle for me. Everywhere around me I am being pressured into eating things I don't want to eat. I ordered a fajita the other day and the waitress insisted that I get a double for a buck more. I told her no. She said, "but it is only a dollar..." I said "no thank you." She said, "But, but.."
loudly: "No."
When you are a food whore like me it is impossible when people are in your face pushing you to eat things you don't want. My husband does this. To everyone. "Do you want more? Was it good; was it greasy, did you like it; was there too much cayenne?; c'mon eat some more... just a little more" are you kidding me?
"No."
My husband talks about food all day, romances it, makes love to it, watches cooking shows, and then will be talking about my next meal before I finish the last one. He does not understand that this is freaking foreplay for me and I need to get away before I succumb to the seduction and beg for a damn cigarette after one of his fattening dinners. He was in heaven during my chemo because I was in bed and couldn't get away from him. Would I like a double BLT with extra mayo? No. Would I like a mocha shake with the marshmallow topping? No. Perhaps I would like some of my favorite chocolate DQ when he goes out to Lowes for a light bulb? No.
He brings the DQ anyway. It wouldn't be so bad if he ate ice cream, but he doesn't. I'm going to make an appointment with a Food Network attorney for a divorce.
Gahhhh.
loudly: "No."
When you are a food whore like me it is impossible when people are in your face pushing you to eat things you don't want. My husband does this. To everyone. "Do you want more? Was it good; was it greasy, did you like it; was there too much cayenne?; c'mon eat some more... just a little more" are you kidding me?
"No."
My husband talks about food all day, romances it, makes love to it, watches cooking shows, and then will be talking about my next meal before I finish the last one. He does not understand that this is freaking foreplay for me and I need to get away before I succumb to the seduction and beg for a damn cigarette after one of his fattening dinners. He was in heaven during my chemo because I was in bed and couldn't get away from him. Would I like a double BLT with extra mayo? No. Would I like a mocha shake with the marshmallow topping? No. Perhaps I would like some of my favorite chocolate DQ when he goes out to Lowes for a light bulb? No.
He brings the DQ anyway. It wouldn't be so bad if he ate ice cream, but he doesn't. I'm going to make an appointment with a Food Network attorney for a divorce.
Gahhhh.
Thursday, July 19, 2012
Tuesday, July 17, 2012
success...
I watched a Woody Allen documentary this morning because everyone is outside and I am not into heat and sun... just comfort. I got to thinking about my own works of art whether it be a novel, a painting or a song I write, and the idea of being honest in it. I've looked for outside validation in my life, and have this odd personality of the Christ and the anti-Christ with regard to my art.
I have this grandiose view of myself but at the same time feel that I am a complete idiot who needs years of therapy, validation from strangers, and medication. I got to thinking after watching Woody. After his Manhatten film debut there was attention - lots of it. Everyone loved it and there were many awards and accolades to follow. Woody hated it. He didn't think it was so honest and shook his head with disgust. His next film was Stardust Memories which everyone despised except Woody. Art is personal. It is not for anyone else but you, your typewriter, your paintbrush or your instrument. If others enjoy it, yay... but if they don't, it is a good thing to let that go. Easier said than done.
I am always asked, "how is your book doing?" I don't have a clue and I don't care. I mean, if it were making gobs of money and I could retire in Capris then perhaps I would give a shit but I am not foolish enough to think I am a real writer any more than I am a real painter. I like expressing myself and (beyond that) if you give me a muse I might just go on for hours with my dog and my bone. Lately my muse is just being alive and breathing which is quite nice after last year's ordeal. People are depressed and need medication to get up in the morning. I just need my muse, a ripe peach for breakfast, and someone to hug.
What is success anyway?
I have this grandiose view of myself but at the same time feel that I am a complete idiot who needs years of therapy, validation from strangers, and medication. I got to thinking after watching Woody. After his Manhatten film debut there was attention - lots of it. Everyone loved it and there were many awards and accolades to follow. Woody hated it. He didn't think it was so honest and shook his head with disgust. His next film was Stardust Memories which everyone despised except Woody. Art is personal. It is not for anyone else but you, your typewriter, your paintbrush or your instrument. If others enjoy it, yay... but if they don't, it is a good thing to let that go. Easier said than done.
I am always asked, "how is your book doing?" I don't have a clue and I don't care. I mean, if it were making gobs of money and I could retire in Capris then perhaps I would give a shit but I am not foolish enough to think I am a real writer any more than I am a real painter. I like expressing myself and (beyond that) if you give me a muse I might just go on for hours with my dog and my bone. Lately my muse is just being alive and breathing which is quite nice after last year's ordeal. People are depressed and need medication to get up in the morning. I just need my muse, a ripe peach for breakfast, and someone to hug.
What is success anyway?
Monday, July 16, 2012
traveling...
Cheesesteaks, Liberty Bell, beach, and family...
Wednesday, July 11, 2012
The rock is NOT good for my abs...
I go to Pilates on Mondays and Wednesdays. Who needs Spanx when you indulge yourself in this sort of bi-weekly torture. My teacher uses all classical music so I enjoy it even more although it is difficult to concentrate on her instructions for downward dog this or side plank that when I am trying to figure out which movement, sonata or prelude she has chosen. Being a former piano teacher has its annoyances for sure.
I was trying to do this godawful move. Lie on my side. Stack my legs one atop the other. Lift (yes) lift my hips off the ground and hold. Now, take my upper leg and raise it for ten repetitions while doing this. I wanted to cry from the pain.
Then she added this:
I was trying to do this godawful move. Lie on my side. Stack my legs one atop the other. Lift (yes) lift my hips off the ground and hold. Now, take my upper leg and raise it for ten repetitions while doing this. I wanted to cry from the pain.
Then she added this:
I was now far past the agony driving into my adductors and my obliques. This woman had intruded into my morning ritual and included the loss of my mother. This was my mother's favorite piece. By the time it came to 2:12 the tears were rolling down my face. Lucky the lights were dim.
Ah, the agony and the ecstasy.
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